I need to vent. If any one even cares to notice. I couldn’t be mad if you just skimmed right by this post but fuck it. Here it goes…
Friendship is such an important relationship to me. It’s a bond you willingly choose. It’s a trust where you share happiness, compassion and hardship. Along with memories. Both good and bad. It’s almost as thick as blood.
I admit. I have had times where I lack the qualities of a good friend. And I’ve been trying to work at it for years. But sometimes, I feel I’ve put others before myself. And now that I’m older it’s harder to keep the same friends. There’s a point in all our lives where we do what’s best for us and it gets harder to maintain that close bond. Though, once you’re reunited, it’s like nothing has ever changed.
One of the most bittersweet moments of my life.
Maybe I’m left behind. I’m not aching for love…but being that kind of alone that makes you think that your feelings aren’t significant to anyone, not even your family or friends. Old friends. New friends. They have their own world of worries. But feeling that small, that empty. I just miss how we all used to be. To all the boyfriend’s and girlfriend’s and the new friends and children that I’ve lost my best friends to…. be grateful for those people. You’re lucky to know them and to have their love and attention. I would trade anything in the world to be in their company.
Yesterday has changed my life. Watching my mother in pain, so helpless, was the most heart breaking moment of my life. She’s the strongest woman I know. And she needs me the most. I’ve let her down so many times. Not this time. I owe it to her to be right next to her through her recovery.
Yesterday taught me what’s important in my life. Who I need to spend my time and energy with. Who I need to let go. Who is there for me in time of lost hope.
if you date me we will have:
- morning sex
- afternoon sex
- dinner sex
- after meal sex
- i made pancakes sex
- good morning sex
- shower sex
- bored sex
- make up sex
- break up sex
- monday sex
- tuesday sex
- wednesday sex
- thursday sex
- friday sex
- saturday sex
- sunday sex
- there is nothing on tv sex
- i love you sex
now I haven’t had sleep so I don’t know if this sounds cool or not
either way I’m posting it because I think it’s as close to finished as I’ll get it
Lana Del Rey/Kanye West - Million Dollar Gold Digger
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